Makes me wanna smile!!!

Noah...my little bug. I love you so much. You gave me one of the greatest gifts a woman could ask for...you made me a mom! More importantly, you just always know how to make a gloomy day better.

Many of you know that my aunt passed away 7 years ago on October 30th. This...was the first year that I was not brought to tears when remembering her. I remember calling my sister in tears a few days before my wedding and letting her know that "it was not fair!!!". What wasn't fair? The fact that my auntie got to be at everyone else's wedding but mine's :(. She got to be with them, share in their day, pinch their tities (inside joke)...but she wasn't there for me. I know she would hae loved to be, but God had other plans for her, and I can't ever doubt the plans He makes. So on my wedding day, I asked the florist to make a rememberance bouquet for her, and that little bouquet made me feel her presence, and that everything was going to be A-ok!
Fast forward to October 30th... Of course it was a tough day, but it was filled with great memories with family that I couldn't bare to let a tear drop. The best part of this day? Noah's 1st smile. It's like he knew just what I needed to get through the day! An added blessing to make me feel that whether I cry or smile, my aunt still knows just how much I love and miss her. He totally warmed my heart, and I will forever remember the day he smiled at us for the first time! Yes, I cried...but for once, they were tears of joy. I can't replace the memory of what has been lost, but I can add a happy memory to the same day, and give it just as much value.

Ma tante...you already know what I have to say...I miss you....wish you were here to see all of our accomplishments, and to see Noah and all the others. Your memory still lives on! Some days, I catch myself laughing just like you! You're in my heart, now and always!