First trip jitters...

So... A few months ago, I was exhausted. Stuck in a daily routine and feeling like I needed to get away. I felt like Carl and I barely got to see each other, and I really wanted for us to reconnect on that level again. We needed a vacation! Time for is to just be together, away from everyone. Just us. So I looked up cruised and we decided on a 7 day cruise. We booked it ASAP, and then waited for it to come. How great it was going to be to spend some time with my husband! No responsibilities, and a bunch of fun!

...and then the month of September came and I realized that us being alone would mean that we would be leaving Noah behind. Did I forget this part? Or is it that when I was thinking of a vacation, I just wanted a getaway from everyone and everything?

Needless to say this month has been hard. I've never been away from him for more than a few hours, and to think of being away for 7 days is hard. I know it's for a good cause. We need to be a couple too. I'm not against the vacation, I just wonder why I didn't choose 5 days or something. Who would've ever thought I was going to be one of those parents... Getting sad about leaving her baby?! Well, I think I did. At least for the first trip. 

I know he will be in great care. I know he will be fine. And most of all, I know I want to be a wife for a little bit that can just focus on me and my hubby. It's just hard. I'm excited about the trip though. It's going to be good to not sleep in our house for a few days. 

Please just pray for us. Carl is just about as emotional. I know we will get through it... Right?!