Something that has been hard...

For the past couple of days, for some reason, I've been talking baby...probably because my BFF Cherlin is back from Africa and this has been a hot topic. Not that we are planning on having another baby this year, but i'm just thinking about future pregnancies. I find myself rebuking things so many times a day...like when the person Cherlin went to go get her dress from yesterday said that her neighbor has 2 kids and they were both preemies, and that it was due to pre-eclampsia...or when yesterday I was at work and the ladies in the front office were talking about the fact that their babies came early...

I am just trying to keep myself together. I feel like we need to be praying in advance for this pregnancy that isn't even a thought in our imagination right now. I guess i'm just nervous! I always pray to God that this was a one time experience, not only for me, but for my family. I want to have more children, but don't want to feel as if every time they come, they come before being full term.

I'm praying for a FULL, HAPPY, HEALTHY pregnancy when God deems it time. I pray that I get to birth this child the natural way, and that I get to feel contractions, get to push...and that my husband experiences cutting an umbilical cord.

THAT is my heart's desire.

The enemy is hard at work, but my God is bigger. Even though I may have these thoughts, I cannot let them affect my faith. I know how faithful God is. I just hope He hears this prayer as well!